I seem to have lost mine somewhere along the way. I think it’s the problem that occurs when one has too much time to do things and too many options, hence, not a whole lot gets done. There is a stack of books on the shelf I keep meaning to read. There are projects that I have half finished in a basket of knitting. There are a bunch of partial paragraphs that need more added to them.
How did I get sidetracked from all these things, especially when I get up every morning and say that I’m going to work on them either individually or collectively. Organization has never been one of my strong points, and a few weeks ago, after talking to the kid’s teachers, it would appear that it’s spreading through the genes as well. If I’m going to push him to get everything in order, and keep all of his work updated, it’s only fair that I make the same attempt.
Words are getting lost somewhere between my brain and the page, be it here or on paper. Nothing is sticking and I can’t seem to find the answer as to why. There was a time when I could sit down and churn out pages of dialog and description and now, it doesn’t happen. I need to step back and figure out what happened. I know part of it is that I’ve pretty much given up on the creative writing groups that I used to frequent. Role playing and story building got lost in the egos and things reached a point where it was more work and effort to accomplish so little that was actually creative. Maybe it’s the fact that I’m holding on to some characters that need to be set free. I keep trying to find a place for them, because I think they have merit in the stories they hold, but I’ve tried time and again and it stalls, even though I have the images from start to finish in my head.
I think this calls for a cup of tea, and spring… the weather is not helping
The holidays are over, and the decorations will be back in the boxes later this week. It went by a lot faster than I thought it would, with family coming here to the house for the first time in quite a while. It was a stress free weekend and then the week after of just bumming around the house doing nothing much, was a nice break from the hectic pace of normalcy.
I’m not one to play out the whole resolutions for the new year, and the fact that I spent the weekend downing a batch of mimosas means that I completely didn’t bother to determine all the things that I should start up or drop doing for the new year. The husband and I both have said we’re making changes with the way we do things, but it has more to do with health issues and coincidental timing than actual “resolution” setting.
One thing I have said is that I’m going to try and get back into the habit of writing again. I am very good at finding distractions all around me and being too busy doing nothing to bother sitting down and putting thoughts here or on paper. I’m not going to do the blog 365 or anything like that, because the pressure to do this every day makes me post random stuff just to post and I end up with a bunch of pictures of things that are known to distract me from writing, and so I’m trying to avoid that.
We’ll see how it goes, with the simple idea that I should write something when there is something worth mentioning or humorous going on here in the house, which is in fact, most days of the week. It’s not like I’m short of material with a teenager tripping over his own feet running around.
Happy new year to those of you that wander here on occasion, let’s hope it’s a better one than the last.
The site has some minor tweaking left, but generally everything works so there’s no rush. The kid is off to his dad’s tomorrow and they’ll be out of town for 10 days. The day after he gets back, I’m shipping him off for a weekend with the grandparents, just because the way schedules worked out. What I’m looking at is about 2 weeks of quiet down time during the day. I’ve been trying to do some writing in between the coding and it’s not working. There’s also the problem of trying to do it with a teenager fragging things in the same room.
I’ve also pretty much backed out of raiding in WoW as of right now. I’ve not really logged in this week because of trying to get some odd jobs done and getting my own stuff up and running, but the fact is, I’m not really missing it that much. I’m trying to make a point of scheduling my time, and right now, there’s no time for gaming other than the occasional minesweeper or mahjong while I’m thinking through things. Now if i can get exercise thrown in there somewhere…things will be set.
